i know it been awhile.....

Well I am off for the summer so I am now updating the blog.

Well I will start with life first.
This past weekend my mom threw a party for me, my brother and herself. This was a big year for the 3 of us. I turned 30, my brother turned 40 and my mom will turn 60. She thought it was a good idea to have a party and have everyone together, espeacially since it seems the only time we see family is at funerals lately. Well everyone behaved. Yeah!!!!

I gave my son a mohawk. I think he looks cute. It is what he wanted.



My oldest daughter graduated pre-k. Oh where does the time go!!!. I swear I blink and my kids get older.




Ok now onto knitting. I have been on a tear lately and have a few FO's. Here they are:

First up: What the?

My hubby and I have a friend that we play socom (videogame) online with. he has been dealing with a health problem and to cheer him up I wanted to knit him a little something to make him smile. I found this little guy on the web (gotta love knittingpaterncentral.com) and thought he was perfect. I gave him a little fishing rod and a fish (also from KPC) and sent him off. Well he received the little guy and from his email he laughed his ___ off. I am glad it cheered him up.

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Second up: gifts for the pre-k teachers.

My daughter's pre-k teachers also taught my son when he was in pre-k (and I am hoping my youngest daughter gets them too). They are wonderful teachers and we love them. I wanted to give them something special, so I knitted (of course). I made one a cala lily (thank you knitty.com) and the other a book mark (KPC again).





Third up: my son's kindergarten teacher's gift.

My son asked me awhile ago to make his teacher something. I saw this pattern at knitpicks.com and I have wanted to make for awhile. I was told she loved it.



Last up: Apres-Ski Kerchief

This is from the book Handknit Holidays. This has been on my I want to knit list for over a year. I finally made it. It was really quick and easy to make.



In other knitting news, I have spotted 5(!!!!!)moths. I am worried about my stash. My stash is bagged and clean, so I am hoping they just came inside and they are not the wool loving kind. I have my fingers crossed. Hubby thinks it is no big deal, but if there was a video game eating moth it would be a different story.

I am also going to attempt kool-aid dyeing. On thursday, a knitting friend and I are going to attempt it. I am also going to try to dye self stripping yarn. Wish me luck!!

and finally something about knitting!

well since this blog is about life AND knitting, i think it is about time to talk about knitting. so this entry will be about the shawl i started back in march. i bought this from elann.com. i saw it in their newsletter and had to have it. niw knitters out there will understand this. i ordered it on the first day it was available and it arrived on my birthday. of course i started it that night. i was about halfway done when i realized that i was knitting 2 bands of color in a stripe instead of just one. at first i was ok so it will not look exactly like the picture but it was still pretty, but then horror - i would not have enough yarn to make it big enough. so a frogging i went. it hurt but i got right back on the horse and started it again. by the next day i was back to half way done. then my hands revolted and i had to take a break. well this past week end i finished it. YEAH!!!. i still love it and hold no hard feelings toward it. i hate finishing and having to weave in way way to many ends drove me a little crazy. what really got to me was 3 needle BO of 319 stitches. many deep breathes were needed for that. without further ado here it is. Adara rainbow shawl.



here is my darling hubby showing it off. (he actually put down the ps3 controller and stopped playing socom to take these pictures- i love him so much)


sorry this one is a little fuzzy


and here is my pile of ends


well that is it. i have hope that the medication i am on helps and i can go back to knitting at my old pace. after all i need to really start christmas knitting. ; )

welcome to hell : )

well it is offical. as of may 16th i have RA. i don't want this. at first i was ok and i was. as i told my family i really believed it when i told them. i am ok with this at least i know i have something and it can be treated. granted it is a lifelong thing and i watched my father die slowly and painful death, i was ok. 2 weeks later i am not ok. i hurt and that is putting mildly. i am on pridnisone for right know and the pain has broken thru. i do not want to go up in doseage because pridnisone is a nasty drug. even my husband doesn't want me on it. tomarrow i go back to the doctors to find out where i am exactly in the progression. that is all good but right know i hurt. and i can't take anything else for the pain.
it got to the point tonight while i was making dinner that i just couldn't take it and i broke down. i am really good with pain but it has been constant and i mean constant no relief and that just wears me down.i do not know how my father did this. 5 years of pain.
when the pain is bad everything looks bad. i wonder about my kids. will i be around to watch them grow up? will i see my grandchildren? what kind of life will i have? will i be able to work? or will i be a burden? then it gets into what will my kids remember about me? always being in pain and miserable? or a loving mom that wanted the best for them? and then the most horrible question of them all- will any or all of them get this too?
i know that this is no way to think and i try not to, it is just hard not to sometimes. when i get like this i need to go knit, which is what i am going to do right now.

welcome to hell : )

well it is offical. as of may 16th i have RA. i don't want this. at first i was ok and i was

WOW!!

ok i finally did it. i edited all the pictures on my computer and uploaded them AND ordered them. want to guess how many? take a guess. 472!!! can you believe it. i ordered extra copies of maybe 10 because they were cute pics. 472 i can't believe it. i had to tell someone. the pictures only cost 60 to print (some were 5x7's) shipping on the other hand went up. i guess since you can pick to pick them up at a store that they charge more to ship. 22 dollars for standard shipping. crazy really crazy. overnight was only 5 dollars more but i didn't do it. and of course there is tax. so i spent 90 bucks on pictures. i must be nuts. well that will teach me to wait over a year to do this.( we will see about that ; ) )

rheumatoid arthritis

rheumatoid arthritis- to me it means fear. my father died from complications. his got so bad that the nodules starting forming on his organs. the medicine that was supposed to help caused him to develop pneumonia, and then his lung would collapse so they would have to stick a tube in him. the hole wouldn't heal, his lungs wouldn't heal. he died when we turned the ventilator off. it was horrible.. i was 8 and a half months pregnant. my son was 15 months, my yougest brother was 21 months, my oldest brother was 35 and my sister was 9. i miss him, miss him very much. i am trying to type this out and i know it doesn't make much sense. 4 and a half years later i still get very upset.

there are times i want to talk to him and then i have to tell myself i can't. i have not said good bye and i don't think that day will ever come. i can't go to his or anyones grave. i just can't . i know other people have this problem and i am sure they can understand me on this. even now while i try to type this i am crying.

what i really fear is that i may have it. my joints hurt. i am 30 and i feel like i am 80. i can't kneel - it is too hard to get up, and it is getting harder. my wrists have no strength and can not bear much weight at all. i have to take breaks when i knit or crochet because the joints in my fingers hurt. then there are the bump. i developed one on my left wrist. when i bend it i hurts and a bump that has gotten bigger shows. now there is one on my right wrist.

i am scared.

ta-da i am blogging

ok. my first blog. my hubby has been telling me to set one up for awhile. he is the best very supportive and my biggest cheerleader. i love him to death. anyway here i am. now the problem is what to write about. hmmmm...... well i just turned the big 30, i have 3 kids (four if you include my hubby) and i live on long island (or what i like to call "this god-forsaken island) no offense to long islanders who read this, it is just that i am from upstate and i really do not fit in here. so part of it is that i am a long distance from my family and i miss them dearly, so that a big strike even brfore i moved here.

i knit. most people would say obsessed but i don't have a problem with that. i love it. my mom taught me how to knit and crochet (along with needlepoint and cross stitch) when i was five. it was so i would leave her alone. i have adhd. and that is how i deal with it. it is a lot better then meds but i don't think it is cheaper.

i also play video games. right now i am playing god of war 2, socom:combined assault, and super paper mario on the wii.

so there is a little info about me. so there you have it my first blog entry. yipee!!